It's not too late

It's not too late to back out.
I quit my job today.

I feel like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders.

Crap

Things had been working in my favour to force my out of my complacency.

Now suddenly, I have a job next year. Some departmental stuff-up meant that I never received my notification of extension of position. So I'm back at school next year, part-time. I only found out today.

Crap.

It's too late to back out of this now.

I've realised two things

1. I don't like change
2. I'm afraid of failure

This has influenced my decision-making processes in the past.
I will not allow this to continue.

Current plan of attack

1. Research agents in both Sydney and Melbourne.
2. Take my singing more seriously by doing more active practice. Continue the reflective and mental practice as before.
3. Exercise at least 3 times a week to help tone body and build stamina.

The beginning

I had a dream.
I wanted to be in musical theatre.

This is not some fly by night dream. I was actually working towards it.
Problem was, I got so sidetracked by the "safety net career" that the original dream fell by the wayside.

For the last decade of my life, I have been living a comfortable, happy life. But something was missing.

I didn't realise how much I was craving my dream until I had Elijah and missed performing.

So I decided to do something about it.

Unfortunately, I wasn't as prepared as I should have been.

Here's part of the back story for anyone who cares:
http://www.dance.net/topic/6470497/1/Musical-Theater/Wicked-auditions-in-Australia.html&replies=12
http://www.dance.net/topic/6571735/1/Photos-Members/Which-headshot-should-I-pick-Look-at-photos-first.html&replies=13
http://www.dance.net/topic/6574559/1/Emergency/CV-help-Two-days.html&replies=6

So this diary will document the formulation of my plan.
The diary will keep me motivated to stay on track and not give up.
This diary will track my progress.

I hope it works.
Because it's pretty much my last chance.